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So I have grown to resent men and I am experiencing that more guys I meet, more I start resenting their gender. It's not gonna be a blog where I am gonna defend how every guy on this planet is a monster. I have never been a feminist really. Perhaps because when I came to get understanding of the word, it got a negative spin towards it. I am all up for true equality where guys are not suppressed or should be removed from their positions to make place for females on board in name of feminism. True gender unbiased feminism is I am in what I support. But the men, who are good men. There is no fundamental problems with them. On surface they are the best men you can ask for. But the deeper you go, you realise that at the end they are men. They have it all so easy and even though they will understand that your life comes with your own hardships. They will pretend to support you in anything until it comes to an inherent problem where you are gonna challenge early "MAN" in them.  ...

‌ It would definitely be nice to have 1st world problems in life but trust me it is good to not have them. It sometimes really surprises me when I sit with my friends who are privileged. Privileged not in the sense that it is a bad thing. It is not because someone in their life decided to not be underprivileged and of course that passes on to future generations. But not being privileged myself in any sort, it really amazes me when they can focus on problems like "Getting judged", "Not going anywhere this summer", there are many but the most frequent and most surprising for me in particular would be "hating your family to not let you buy a piece of clothing, accessory, game, gadget" etc. Then there are people like me. I am happy they are paying my fees, I am happy I am getting ₹6000 a month to spend on necessities and I don't have to go and work for that money. Not having 1st world problems taught me a lot. Perhaps I am finding a way to make myself feel...

It's so funny I always wanted to be like books, "No complaints, no demands." Books, just doing their thing and making everybody around them happy, connecting with strangers. I like to see myself as a book. You know with an obvious cover looking like a human. A more attractive one. I didn't use attractive word for flattery, I used it because I do realise that even in this progressive society a fair girl is still a more attractive look. So hopefully without hurting anybody's feelings let me continue with my analogy. So I am imagining myself as a book among many books in this library called the world. Now obviously people are looking, someone liked me, started reading me but to find out that I am not for them, some didn't even like to interact with me because my cover was not attractive enough for them. Now there were very few interactions that proved to be meaningful. Those were the people who matter. They picked me up, opened me, read me, liked some parts, some...