IT SUCKS AND THAT'S ALRIGHT

Yes, failures don't matter in the long run. You will not even remember when you got 50% or 90% in school. Or when you got a supply in your college. But that doesn't reduce the pain in the short term. You cry and cry because you have to get through it. You have to sit through those exams again. You have to pass through those corridors where people are judging you for being a failure right now. You cannot just go to your relatives and your parents and make them feel better by telling them you will be successful in the future. It's so convenient really. On one side you'll be asked to stay in the present, Life is too short. On the other hand, these failures don't matter, they don't decide your future. Work hard towards your future. I mean pick a lane. I have been crying for a week now since my result came out and not to my surprise nobody's there for me the way I am. And let me be honest having myself on my side is not a party either. I know for a fact that I could have one person with me even better than I but she's not there anymore. Yes, I have made up my mind that all this will pass, nobody's gonna remember this. Hell,my group of supply students named our group WE WILL STRIKE BACK HARDER. What a lame of telling everybody that we have failed an exam, it's affecting us immensely but we read some cliché quotes, our parents used them to make us feel better and now we are doing better with this hope in my mind. Don't get me wrong, I am all up for uplifting, boosting confidence whatever works. But I would prefer people telling me that yes it sucks, it's sucking and it's gonna suck for a while now. Eventually it won't matter. Nothing does but until then you will have to go through such a sucky situation like a brinjal being prepared for baingan ka bharta. I do feel like that sometimes. You can be all mature, but I think I am still not there. This situation is affecting me and it's gonna affect me for a long time because you know what I can't help it. It's how it is. Whatever bad happens, it does affect us. It will be alright eventually but till then just hang in there that much that you don't hang yourself. It is what it is. It's gonna be alright eventually, it always does.

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