Time makes you helpless

I have been in a happy relationship with a guy for almost four years now and today I came to realise that he's such different guy than what I was thinking. I always thought he's a normal guy with little insecurities, a bit desi, a bit modern. Just the right amount of Haryanavi. Today he said that, "Girls don't want guys to approach them in a bar or they are committed then they should not wear short clothes. A girl wearing short dresses is an invitation for a guy to approach her." Am feeling so helpless right now because I never thought I was dating guy who came out today. Was I really this oblivious the whole time. Is he really not the guy I thought he was. I thought he is a MBA from IIM, a prestigious institute of India. I thought he might be haryanvi but he must be a little progressive because we talked and talked for hours for years. And I never came across this side of him. Or he made me think. Did I choose to ignore that side of him. Was he always like this. Did I really not see all the red flags. Is he really the kind of guy who's thinking a covered girl is a secure girl. The worst of all this is that I have spent four years with this guy. I am not even sure where to go from here. Can I really spend my whole life with a guy who's thinking like this. Is he really the kind of guy I wanna raise my children with. Is he gonna tell my daughter to wear covered clothes so that she will not get raped. How in a long distance relationship where I spent most my time just talking to him I could not be more deaf. I am in a dilemma that shook me and then there are other issues that am gonna talk about in a different blog.


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